So I wanted to finish my blog
about living abroad and my experience of spending 9 months in Brazil with one
last entry on what’s it like to settle back at home. Arriving back in my small home town I realised
so little yet so much had changed. Once I
was home it felt like I never really left and the entire experience feels
surreal. Not to sound ungrateful or
anything but seeing people such as my family whom I had missed dearly wasn’t emotional
as expected. As promised I ordered my favorite take-out Indian and we sat
around the table having our usual banter and conversations, and very soon felt
like I was back into my old routine. Despite
that home hadn’t changed, the people and my experience with it has completely
flipped. When I left for Brazil I thought I was
prepared for some people in my life to grow apart from me. However what I was
unprepared for was the opportunity to completely change and push me away.
If you have followed me along
this journey then you are aware that despite the amazing opportunities which I
experienced in Brazil. I have also had my fair share of issues in which I’ve
not been properly been able to deal with and overcome whilst being isolated in
another country. Even though I was excited to come home, this also meant that I
had to deal with all the problems I have managed to avoid so far. I don’t believe you can end a 7 year
relationship over skype so problem one was seeing the ex and ending things on
good terms. In short before traveling I never
expected for the person I cared about in the world to use it as an opportunity to
cheat on me, change his whole personality, throw me away and replace me. I would say I wish I had prepared myself for
this possibility before traveling but let’s face it, can anyone really prepare
for that. Well first weekend home and I
think I may of reverted back to my 14 year old self after a litre bottle of
Whiskey. (Not very clever Becky!!!).
However in light of this, I have
had the opportunity to see friends and have even got back in contact with some
old good friends. Disregarded all the
poisoness people and only gave my time to those who really care. This has
included a Food, Drinking, Bowling, Coffee, and many catching up sessions. And best
yet seeing everyone Graduate knowing this will be me next year. (SO PROUD OF YOU ALL) Seeing friends was similar to when I saw
my family very quickly jumped straight back into routine like I barely left. Safe to say my friends are making sure I don’t
get bored this is making things easier. I should also mention I have finally
handed my work in but this year has exhausted me, I am not a 100% happy with
work but well at least it’s done and handed in. Being a Good Samaritan I even
handed in my “friends”/old housemates work for them. Not like they deserved it
as they were completely ungrateful.
I could really ramble for ages
but I am writing this blog on 2 hours sleep with a hangover so I will summarise.
I am glad to be settled back into routine and be settled back at home coming
back itself came with some challenges. So much has happened this year both good
and bad and I think it’s helped me develop and grow as a person. I think
settling back at home was quicker and easier than anticipated, although as
expected it meant having the deal with other unexpected aspects of my life.
This year has forced me to re-evaluate my entire perspective on everything. I
knew traveling would change me but I never expected the change to be this
dramatic. So I will end by saying if you’re planning on traveling, living
abroad or taking a gap year, expect the unexpected and be prepared for to come
back as a completely different person.
Thankyou everyone who has followed me on this emotionally crazed Journey.
